The last two months as I was teaching theories on the Christian Home and Crisis Counseling, personally and as a family, God wanted me rather to be learning more about His ways. He has put us through “practicals,” especially with Dorothy’s dad in and out of the Intensive Care Unit of the hospital. We thank all who uphold us during this time. For me, a difficult lesson in faith has been to accept that which I can’t explain and to trust God when His answers don’t correspond with my expectations in prayer. Someone has aptly expressed my experience:
I asked for strength but God raised up mountains to make me strong.
I asked for boldness but God put me situations to dare.
I asked for wisdom but God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for courage but God put hurdles to overcome.
I asked for patience but God placed me in the waiting room.
I asked for love but God placed me among the unloved.
I asked for favors but God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted; but received everything I needed!
During these tough times, I believe my Father God still loves us and knows we love Him. So all these things (whether positive or not) are working together for our good and His greater glory (Rom. 8:28). One truth that has gripped my heart and mind over the years is the conviction that God is too good to be unkind to me, and too wise to make any mistakes in my life. So I’ll just keep trusting my Lord! I’m drawing strength from a 1932 poem by A.M. Overton I’ve memorized and this is how it goes:
My Father’s way may twist and turn, My heart may throb and ache,
But in my soul I’m glad to know, He maketh no mistake.
My cherished plans may go astray, My hopes may fade away,
But still I’ll trust my Lord to lead, For He doth know the way.
Tho’ night be dark and it may seem, that day will never break,
I’ll pin my faith, my all, in Him, He maketh no mistake.
There’s so much now I cannot see, My eyesight far too dim,
But come what may, I’ll simply trust and leave it all to Him.
For by and by the mist will lift, and plain it all He’ll make,
Through all the way, tho’ dark to me, He made not one mistake!